Mixed Feelings, But Grateful

Hey guys,

since coming back here and starting up the Locklear comic, my emotions have gotten really mixed up. I'm so grateful for all of the support while I get back into the swing of drawing. I'm having a lot of fun working on the Locklear story, but it's also made me realize that a part of me is actually starting to miss The Seer. Mind you, it's still not enough to push me to try taking it on again at this moment in time, but for the first time in a year that feeling is there. This leads me to the next thing.

If you check out my gallery, you'll notice that I brought the pages to "The Seer" back out of storage and into a new folder for them. I've also made all of the Seer videos on my Youtube channel public again, so you're free to read/watch those again as you please. The reason I privatized and stored those for a few months was because I was really feeling terrible for a while. My inspiration was completely dead and I felt so guilty about it. And every single day I would get comments begging for its return, and that just made the pain worse, so I thought by privatizing them, it would help.

Those of you who have known me for a long time know that I've changed and grown so much since I first joined this community. Unfortunately, one of the reasons my inspiration died and the comic was such a dark spot for me was because it reminded me of old friendships that died, and old conflicts that are now in the past. I'm not that same bright eyed kid who started the comic as a side project while in school. I'm now a 25 year old woman who works full time, has a lease and bills and real world responsibilities, so all the little dramas I got myself caught up in before just seem so petty and pointless to me now. Part of my fear of picking The Seer up again stems from me wanting to let old conflict rest and not risk stirring anything up that should remain in the past.

But I've stepped away from it long enough that I realize that I /DO/ miss it. The good parts. The fun parts. The fun and whimsical story. I'm still not ready to pick up the helm again, but my thoughts have definitely drifted back to it. Working on my Locklear comic reminded me how much I enjoy actually working on web comics. 

I can't make any promises, but I'd like to think that this extended hiatus won't be forever. With how busy my current life is, I'd either have to wait until I finish book one of the Locklear comic, or I'd need to get some help of some kind in making the new pages. IDk. I've got a lot to think about right now. If you've got suggestions, by all means feel free to leave them.

Anyways, I guess the point of this whole rambling journal thing was just to first thank you guys for your continued support. That's honestly played a massive role in my continued motivation. You're all amazing and I truly appreciate you. And secondly, I just wanted to be open and transparent about how I'm feeling in regards to "The Seer", because I feel you deserve to be in the loop while I process my thoughts and emotions regarding it.

As always, love you guys, and I'll catch you later!